It has been a long time since I have written a blog or even thought about updating my page here. I have been battling back and forth whether or not I have anything to write. But deep within me is always a passion to do so. So I have been dealing with this internal struggle to come up with something worth while that might just engage readers enough.
I took a look at my surroundings and what I am currently doing in my life, and I then compared them to the world travels and amazing new revelations I was coming into a while back. I began to laugh at the comparison, like there was much of one, and then began to doubt in my ability to write new and exciting things. But then I thought deeper and realized that Jesus never waited until He found new, relevant, and exciting things to speak, yet He just spoke and people listened. Granted, He is Jesus and He is an overwhelming being of revelation and knowledge; I can't compare. But I got hit with the idea that my life is a constant journey. The Lord doesn't wait to move until you are on the mission field. He doesn't wait to speak until you are in a prayer room. He doesn't wait to encounter until you move to a country and dedicate your time to helping the poor. Jesus is always moving, He is always speaking, and He is always willing to encounter us at any particular point in our journey of life.
When I used to look back at this past year, I would sort of just think it was a season of transition and I wasn't expecting much to come from it until the Lord called me out to missions again. I know...I fell into the mindset that I have to be doing "missions" work to be effective. I have constantly told so many people that your life is "missions" no matter what you are doing. Whether you go to school, whether you work, or whether you are on the "mission field". I felt like a hypocrite when I realized I wasn't living by that mentality.
I currently look back at this past year and am now struck with constant memories of how the Lord has moved in my life and through my life. We both found jobs and an apartment, and it was hard for me not to think of that as "the normal life". But I now look and realize the Lord has been using me, even when I haven't fully seen it.
For those of you who don't really know what I am up to, I am living in Colorado with my wife as we both work, waiting to here what the Lord has for us...day by day. It was challenging at first. Now it's riveting! I can't tell you how many opportunities I have had to impact people I work with and even the customers within my job. But the enemy blinded me to it. I cried out to the Lord to make a move. But little did I realize He was moving...constantly.
That may all sound so jumbled. But the thing I want to convey is that Jesus is so real and so alive today. He doesn't come alive based on what you are doing in your life that may sound more holy or not. He is always willing to move and impact His children. I have been hungering for travels and to see the Lord move in other nations. That was a hard wall to hit when I felt Him calmly say that He wants to give me a heart for all of His children, regardless of where I am at in the world. I can't say that I have ever really had a "heart" for Colorado, but I can say the Lord is giving me His slowly, because God knows I can only handle so much.